Wednesday, 15 March 2017

And then there will as sure as love be weeping 2

It is at this point in the tale that a man with a fabulous tail strides in to introduce himself. He swishes it firstly to the left and then to the right, as he steps up briskly to face me and slaps me with a finger on the nose. I must admit, I turn quite pale when he rolls his eyes and digs in his heels, before leaning in close to me. I feel I might die, although his eyes do not convey malice, and not for a moment do I believe I might actually be harmed.
   "Russian!" he pipes. "Well I'll be damned! I've lost sausages here. Do you want some?"
   He flicks a toe and spins around, and in a moment is gone. What a character. I've no doubt I'll see him again.

The sky is now filled with apocalyptic black clouds and a rain of golden flakes begins to fall. Loud rumbling is followed by a legion of black clad militia on bikes, wearing full face helmets, emblazoned with the insignia of the Noose. For the most part they stare straight ahead, but not one, who is presumably chief and is scanning the horizon, which is how he comes to see me.
   He breaks from the group and heads straight for me, then plucks me up in his strong arms and drops me into the carriage of his bike before rejoining formation with the others. They are heading for the Reconditioning Centre for Dreamers. "Here's another one" he announces to his men "Roaming around in the open. Almost certainly a dreamer. Maybe even a poet."
   The terrain is quite featureless, although before long the entourage starts to navigate its way through streets beneath grey edifices which increase in size as we travel between them. The shuttered windows are occasionally thrown open and through them appear giant heads which appear to jeer. However, the skin on their faces is flaking and peeling. It is red raw.
   People start to crawl from the houses. They cling to each other, then come more, forming a sticky morass that grows into a corpulent, pulsing red member, into which the team of bikers collides and penetrates. Because this is the penitentiary. It is the soul, the brain, the heart. As they penetrate a whistle blows and the membranes of the walls snap shut behind them.
   I am led to the front desk and the man there wants to take my temperature. He rudely seats me down and places a sensitised helmet over my head. The device reads my ears, my nose, my eyes, my lips. Sensors creep from it and move across the length of my body, concentrating particularly on the area of my sex. He reads the instruments and declares "This one's a dreamer alright!" However, the soldiers have all returned to their duties and there is no-one around to hear him. He is now playing at the machine as though it was a games console, and the music is getting steadily louder. He leaves the machine to walk with a female assistant.
   I close my eyes and abandon myself.
   I see them dancing around a pince nez, which spins at the tip of the trunk-like nose it is attached to, but every so often inverts and moves around like a caterpillar.
   I speak and they disappear then reappear either side of me, unplucking the sensors from my body.
   "The sensors can't be wrong" one declares. "No doubt about it, a dreamer" the other replies. And I wait, I cannot say how long. I feel like an innocent, bereft of all moral turmoil. I seem to wander without volition, going nowhere but where fancy takes me.
   And so it is that I stumble upon a lavish feast. As I enter the dining hall my body fades and I float amongst the tables as a ghost. A crucifix that stands before one of the central tables bows as I approach it. The women who are seated on either side breath fire then jump up and briskly leave the hall, as though they had been affronted. They leave behind a pair of notes:

   "It is a book that lies apart."
   "It passes through the scripted ruins."

And then I plummet to the ground.

Friday, 24 February 2017

And then there will as sure as love be weeping 1

The cat has left a gift upon the kitchen floor. It is a mouse. Its heart still beats, though it is at pains to do so. A bubble of thought rises soberly into the air: 'Please let me be', but the guardian cannot hear this. She is turned the other way. Her thoughts sink slowly to the ground: 'Where are they?'

The floor has recently been washed and the pulsing corpse could be the sordid decoration on a ceremonial cake. A something to be proud of. 'They must come soon'. In the distance a bang and the sound of footsteps: approaching, deviating, retreating. Silence. Patience. 'Miaow '. Here they come.

But the high sonic reveille that greets her when the door is opened is too much for Ting and out she darts through the cat-flap, as fast as her aged limbs will take her. This may be the last gift she leaves.

Had she stayed in place, however, she would have seen that her gift had brought not joy but resigned anger, as the mouse is quickly scooped up and carried outside to the bin. The bang of the lid as it closes is indeed a joyless sound. But imagine, if you please, that mother and father had taken a turn around to the back of the house in search of Ting and found there a palace of fur and twine, of trinkets and bones. That her mouse had been only a foretaste of the stuff her dreams were made of. 

Imagine then, that they had ventured through a magical doorway constructed of twigs, cobwebs and fish bones and stood in wonder, unaware that Ting, perched up high and looking down upon them in a curious way, was counting the seconds until the commencement of her glorious plan.
   When their hands join they find themselves formless, as suspended light that finds expression in a single spark that separates itself and journeys through the air into the murky dark where it settles at the heart of the gloom (the soul is infinitesimally small - a zygote, a sperm).
It is cold here, a foreign place, not entirely dark, but casting little lustre into the surrounds. It is the centre of a place that is yet to be realized, an island in the shade of trepidation. The spirits of dead mice risen abound. The crystalline centres of their eyes crackle and fizz as ice cold water washes through them. Just above the surf small flies gamble with their lives and often lose. However, it is not entirely silent, footprints splash determinedly through the tide and stop before me.
    I can see very little in this gloom but as I attempt to stand and face my assailant the space grows a little brighter. There is now light enough to see her face, which is rounded and dark. Her hair is pinched back; her eyes large and wide. Her lips are full and, stretching diagonally across her cheeks, from her chin to her ears, are a pair of zigzagging blue scars, like bolts of lightning, and it is from these that the dawning light shines.
   She takes my hand. Hers is soft. It feels like the kind of hand I would want to hold, and she guides me along behind her.
   When she stops we are at the basket of a moored balloon, into which she deftly climbs, urging me to follow.
   Once I am inside she cuts the guys without hesitation, and we rise into an uncertain sky, where nothing can be seen, no birds, no clouds, no ground below.
   It seems an age before the balloon becomes trapped at the edge of a mass of weaving briars, into which she deftly leaps, while I cautiously follow. Though as she starts to weave her way skillfully through the dense entanglement I realise that they are in fact giant hairs and that we are venturing along the brow of god.
   Our passage is slow and cumbersome but we reach the end in due course and she disappears into a hole that marks the position where the third eye would have been located, and I of course follow her through, but as I drop down I realise that I am once more alone.
   The vast space into which I have landed, I soon realise, is the brain of god.
   As I walk deeper into it the dots I had seen in the distance loom larger and I can make out figures: men and women at rest and dreaming upon slatted beds. There are also children, but these are not dormant, they run free, but are forever concealed by shadows, as they evade the realms of adulthood. They play hide and seek, but with every intention of losing themselves entirely, of never being found.
   The adults, who lay on their backs upon the beds, have sheets pulled over their faces and seem at first glance to be dead, but as I approach I can see their chests are rising and sinking and can feel their breath, which is slight but nevertheless regular, when I hold my palm above their mouths. When I lift the veil from their faces their eyes flicker wildly, reminding me of antique computer banks, rapidly saving and deleting.
   I now notice that none of the bodies are in contact with the beds upon which they appear to rest, levitating a centimeter or so above it, although they will not budge when I attempt to move them, not even slightly, as though they are in some way rooted, not only to the bed, but also to the earth beneath it.
   I further notice that some are levitating over thin mattresses rather than beds whilst there is nothing at all beneath others,  but every one of them is equally resistant to movement.
   There is one, however, who lays face down, and I am inclined to believe that this one, being the exception, will not resist.
   I am right, or at least partially so. When I grasp an arm and try to turn the individual to face me everything around me starts to fade, as it would if this were the dream sequence of a film, and when I let go the individual starts to turn freely, as though of its own volition, and then starts to spin and cocoon itself in a web that is the colour of faeces.
   As though this was a cue I sense that the children are gradually approaching, moving cautiously into my field of vision, though when I turn to face them they are gone.
   I also sense that the patch of ground upon which I am standing is starting to shift and sink, but is the cavity that is forming as much a cavity in the skull where my adventures are taking place as it is a cavity in the soil where I stand, which is all that remains as everything fades around me?
   The spinning cocoon gradually tightens and elongates until it becomes so dark and heavy that it drops to the ground, where it cracks and spills its deep brown liquid contents, which start to corrode a deep hole into the earth.
   As everything has now faded away and I am in danger of being consumed by the disappearing world of which I have become a part, I drop down into the hole, trying my best to avoid touching the corrosive ooze that runs down the expanding walls of the funnel, and as I descend I look up to see the children's faces appear over the rim. Attentively, they watch as I fall.

I don't have too far to go and land quite comfortably upon a meadow, dotted with large white balls that I initially take for stones, although they are very smooth and most perfectly round. Also, whichever direction I cast my eyes there are giant shoes of every description. I can't resist picking up one of the stones and am surprised to find that it is lighter than anticipated. I attempt to toss it into a particularly elegant Victorian boot.

Tuesday, 10 January 2017

First Fiction • Avocation with the Agent of Dream

Be sure the meat is thoroughly cooked. It will soon be the end. In cold liver fat. Uncomfortable music. Dim expectations. Quickly shifting settings treat the eye.

A wife in secret. A maiden tested. Our love is cooked. Three knocks announce seduction. Onions, nettles, roots or clover and oats. Where sails the boat of our keenest affections? Splicing and combining the lonesome in preordained cells. Restless, disinterested, tired. A vessel with no way to go. Shutting the world out to make believe. Mistaking identity. Maturity an embarrassment. A mask for carnival, a carnival mask for life. Cracked. Blood oven of a dark moon. Black speck against the rising sun. Kaleidoscopic generation of sound. Observing the world by cloistered carriage. Lightly creeping up to the spider's lair. A communal space wherein resides a corpse.

An orb of blood slashes the web, drawing in streams of butterflies, and their several colours envelop the sphere. They bring their own music from within; it resonates through the thin walls of their hearts; a whistle that enchants and draws us in: pulsing with the wax and wane of blood spell; dutifully recorded. Cocooned.

What's not revealed is imagined and what is witnessed is concealed by the silent observer; his body a cushion for pin-pricks of desire: emitting flames of blue light that dance and occasionally touch suggestively, as flowers in a favoured, but unfettered, breeze. Naked.

Spirit possessed. Unsurmounted remnants of an abandoned past; remuneration that seems no reward. Evading easy access. Dispersals in an insectoidal swirl. A glistening dragon ascending, heavenbound, to be regenerated, away from the island of its birth.

Enter the elders, with gifts of obeisance: licquor and tobacco. They lay these down then coil in foetal silence to die, as their bodies are painted red by an ancient mother. Thus are they prepared to be taken back into the womb.

They slide indifferently into the blood drenched mire, sinking to the toll of discordant bells, striking midnight as their bodies shudder and discharge, and hearts start to beat as they disgorge showers of blood which, airborne, turn to swarms of wasps, and as they hit the ground, to grass, freshly mown.

Light pours from their mouths, their eyes, nostrils and ears, as from solar flares. Within their skulls their eyes slowly melt away; their bodies sprawled across the endless expanse of lawn.

The elders return and decorate each of them with panther spots. They pass a metal ring around the neck of a woman and fasten a clump of heather to the head of a man. Her legs are parted; his penis is studded with thorns.

She is dressed in fine clothes. A hole is burnt into his skull above one ear, into which smoke is blown. She lets out a sigh. He groans contentedly. The elders cover their eyes to keep them from witnessing this "primal act". She plays a fish-shaped flute then sheaths his penis with it and blood flows. He puffs himself up, a bird uncertain as to whether it might fight or fly, attracting a cloud of butterflies to his body.

A hill rises before him. Blackout. He forces himself to climb it but doesn't manage to get very far before he slides back down. He tries again, as the woman endeavours to find a way into his skin via the flute. Beautiful things can happen by chance. I don't value the compulsion to make them happen again, and again (and again).

Fire and light are re-kindled from this union.

She enters him completely. Only the skin remains. They rise into the air, steady as a rocket. I love as much as the next person but no longer "invest in love".

The elders uncover their eyes, gather up what remains, and plant a sign: FOR SALE.

A large, dark blue automobile drives onto the site. A group of six or seven year olds steps out. They disrobe and roll in the patches of blood, smearing it onto their bodies, then begin to burrow, unearthing a giant chequered board, with cells sufficiently large for them to stand in. They jump down into the black ones and step from one to another, always avoiding the ones that are white.

Through small connecting hatches in the corner shadows, which they have to crouch to unlatch and crawl through, the boys find barbed flutes, and with these they cover their penises. They subsequently bleed. In a moment they are gone.

The girls press miniature binoculars to their eyes and through these send beams of blue light into the sky, as the air becomes colder.

Plants in flower are revealed, as are wings and spectral twinklings. Sweat floods down their bodies. The blue light and sweat combine to draw the boys back and each joins the nearest girl, who grasps his flute, but the bond is not strong enough and the boys pull away and club together at a space removed, where they pool their blood.

They make their way up the hill, slashing down the tangle of creepers and vines that now covers it; scattering clouds of insects and butterflies, as the girls follow their progress through the binoculars. But they see something quite different. They see wild cats with sleek black hair. These swoop back down the hill and carry the girls off between their jaws. The boys run back and gather up the flutes, which the girls have let fall.

With fortified purpose they jump back into the construct and again progress from cell to cell. As they make their way the outer walls, the floor and doors open like flowers and reveal themselves. They are the panthers and they drop the girls from between their rabid jaws as they growl ferociously and are perceived to be closing in on the children. This forces them to regroup, and each clings to the nearest, but then they break away and embrace their favourite.

As each pair is formed a bubble of amniotic fluid encases them, as though it were a protective barrier. But the girls try to take the flutes back from the boys and the interior of the capsules fills with blood. In this way the vessels consume them. Each is replaced by a blood red head, suspended in the air, spinning on the oblique. The panthers snap their jaws at these but do not manage to sink in their teeth. The heads rise above them and one by one they sink into the corners, dejected.

A light rain of blood falls now and the boys pull themselves from the skins of the panthers. They head back up the hill in search of the girls who they find in a wondrous garden, nursing white swans.

Each of the girls quickly conceals something (a bloody bone?) by burying it, and then breaks into a cold, feverish sweat. They approach the nearest boy and push a comb into his hair, but press so hard that the boys' heads split open, with an outpouring of his most putrescent imaginings, accompanied by a fetid stench.

The girls now paint the images spawned from the boys minds onto the cell tomb walls from their collected blood: depictions of themselves in congress with the swans, and as they paint, sure enough, the swans move in, but fights ensue between the birds as they attempt to approach who they will, rather than the one who has chosen them, so the girls intervene and, kissing their eyes, sends each into the night sky, into which they rise steadily, as though drawn by the light from the stars.

As the girls retreat and scatter blood runs down the walls and seeps into the earth.

An infant appears and runs from the tomb womb to a secluded garden, where he lies beside a pool ringed with willows.

Now a bishop rises from the matrix and approaches the boy whilst a knight rides around the pool to meet him. The bishop draws a gun from beneath his cassock and holds it to the head of the sleeping boy whilst the knight calls out his name. The boy wakes and blushes as he realises he is naked, and the bishop's bullet misses its mark on account of his trembling. The swans arc across the sky, blazing midday suns. The bishop ducks, perceiving them to be meteors, and spews streams of foul smelling liquid, then presses the barrel of the gun to his own temple, but a sudden hail storm arrests his hand.

The boy snatches the gun from him as they are forced by the torrent through the thickening mist and exit at a place of ruins. Here there is a hut built from debris, inside which the children are busy putting things in order, but they are warded from entering by the redness of the interior and the childrens' bodies. However, the boy rushes in and heads straight for a bowl at the centre which is filled with an assortment of invertebrates, which he offers to the men, but which they do not want, whilst the boy swallows them down voraciously, as one intoxicated, then proceeds to offer the gun to the knight, then the bishop, all the while making it obvious that he intends for them to use it on him, though each in his turn refuses.

A sand viper coils before his feet, hissing, with tongue lashing, but he talks to it gently and calms it down, at which each of the girls punches him once on the back and his body takes on the same ochre hue as the other children. He plucks a cigar from the table, lights it in the fire and steps out into the rain. He wanders through the wreckage and along the coast, disoriented, until he stumbles across the tomb grid, which has now filled with tide water, where the body of a woman floats purposefully to the surface to greet him, her lifeless gaze fixed upon him, her eyes flashing coldly.

She lowers her head and spews gold onto the sand at his feet, where it turns to a heap of ochre red dust. The boy grabs her by the scruff of the neck and drags her away from the sea onto a long straight road, along which he proceeds, with the woman in tow, as it once again starts to rain.

His passage is suddenly blocked by a rock that falls from the sky. He rolls this forward, drops her into the depression, and lets the rock fall back into place, but he is instantly wracked by fever and the colour drains from his body as the earth swallows him whole, leaving a large, circular, red ochre stain, which slowly turns russet as a bruise on a cherry and starts to rot away, whilst the rain becomes increasingly frustrating and a portentous gloom descends.

An eyeless eagle settles upon the stain and claws at the now blackened earth, opening a channel that would seem to offer some means of escape from this oppressive world, although a band of blood red that rings the interior hints at the dangers of venturing deeper, and from the depths a pair of threatening eyes gleams. A tiger's roar is heard and the sense is strong that one more step inward would provoke an attack from whatever lurks inside.

A tiger rushes out, but is tethered by the neck with the blood red band, and an unseen force tugs it back inside, as a group of trolls emerges and forms a ring.

Whilst their attire is surprisingly elegant their skin is strange and translucent, and exposure to the air causes it to blister. They hurriedly commence rubbing ointment upon each other as their skins take on an ochre red hue and start to peel, releasing an unblighted double, which leaves the festering form to die away as it disappears into the distance.

A truck pulls up. From it leaps a brightly dressed man, who hops from foot to foot, crashing together a pair of battered cymbals, and this noise draws the tiger back out of the hole, lusting for blood. But the troll doubles are returning and the beast seems more concerned with preventing them from re-entering the hole, which it does by consuming what remains of their old bodies, and this indeed slows them down, although an explosion to the side compels them to head in that direction and investigate the new hole.

From this appears a man who would appear to be king of the elves, and seems ready to speak:

   "Some episodes are coming out from ant-roads after stretching the night comb, then sleeping-life."

At this his subjects start to appear from the hole and set fire to whatever around them will burn. But the trolls seem ready to launch an attack. So the elves sneak into the troll hole while the trolls sneak into theirs. But as they each approach the hole they have chosen to enter their feet start to lift from the ground and they gradually disappear as they float, leaving great uncertainty as to whether they might have entered or not, until their shadows sink inside.

The cat would pounce upon these ghosts and shadows, but they are too many, too fleeting. The frantic tramping unearths an ornate bird-charm, with red and blue beads and pink fringes. Beneath this a pool of seeping waters slowly rises and we are tugged beneath the surface.

We emerge from a pool of blood. This is the moat surrounding a tall tower, and we are quickly plucked from it, as though with a net. We are carried into the tower itself, to meet with the shadows of the elves.

They behave in a curiously seductive manner. Meanwhile, they cocoon us with elfin strands. Once wrapped, we are overwhelmed by a feverish heat. The shadows start to ornament our hair. Steam evaporates from the tops of our heads as we overheat. The mist, however, clears, and the room is filled with light that appears to emanate from filaments woven into our hair.

Once finished, they gesture for us to leave. We bound away with elfin leaps. We would like to impress our benefactors. Gaily, we spring from a tall window, down into the moat and away, across the thicket.

A crowd has gathered. Some are chopping at the trees and constructing, whilst others are collecting sap. They build barricades against the massive creatures on the other side. But over we go, sending startled birds into the sky.

We are instantly assailed by wild creatures. However, we feel that if we were to act like them we might passify them, and away they run, as we glide onto an escalator that guides us into the centre of things.

As we escalate we are showered down upon, and from within the streams of water glimmers of snakes appear to guide us.

We follow, and are met by two masked men who take us to a hole in the ground, where lies the king of the trolls, who seems at peace, even happy. My feelings vacillate between love and hate.

One of the men draws out a small, testicle shaped pouch and takes from it a pinch of tobacco, which he drops into the troll king's hand, where it becomes a coiling red snake, as a ring of elves with torches closes in. My escorts remove their masks. One cracks a whip. But the elves leap onto their shoulders and heads, as they ride into the air, turning 90° as they go, so that the elves are sitting cross-legged upon them, and streams of blood and urine flow from between their legs, coiling away in serpentine strands as they hit the ground.

They brush each other's hair. One pulls out a whistle and blows, though no sound is heard. Inanimate objects spring suddenly to life. Chicken shacks, clogs, pebbles, eggs. The wild cat of our soul leaps at them, but whether to play or to destroy, it is impossible to say, though our hand is gently stayed, with a vague consciousness of reprimand. The inanimate objects are taboo. They leap into the blood pool. We leap in after them: to attack, to aid or follow? We are without motive.

Emerging on the cracked surface of a time-honoured lava flow we discover that an egg is pursuing us, although when we see it it falls from the air into a small nest of straw, as though freshly laid. It cracks open and from it unfurls The Plan, which shows us a way to escape from this labyrinth. It is so complex we are reduced to tears, though I suspect the plan is false; how could anyone have devised such a thing? If word of inside got out those responsible would be punished, and for this reason I suspect that the escape route has subsequently been mythologised, and that if we followed this plan we would lend credence to the ruse, whilst remaining ignorant of whose interests we are serving.

A green flash acts as a signal for us to commence, and an opening door unfurls a jungle of blue. As we pass through the door we start to visualize what might be beyond so that we may not be shocked by it

Seven panthers prowl as we hang by our feet from the canopy above them. Blood trails down our bodies from our genitals and to a pool on the ground. But the real threat comes from non-organic objects. The panthers and all other living creatures are likewise threatened by such things. A man enters the scene and leads one cat away. A surveillance team then walks in, followed by a group of gunmen who take down the remaining animals. Then comes a group of officers who fine the gunmen and string them up, whilst the blood from the panthers runs into the pool already formed and from it rises a giant snake to swallow the men whole, followed by swarms of birds that quickly stitch together the canopy of branches and leaves above our heads, but living gloves start to climb down the trunks of the trees. They grab the guns and open fire upon the men, who remain trapped in this woven prison, whilst the cameramen move in, followed by the analysts and the traders.

The money begins to trickle in, then shower, from the nests above into the open palmed gloves, and onto the ground, where it flows through the rows of assembly lines, followed by trails of fire, as one by one the workers are beaten with wooden paddles.

This image fades, leaving us with the shadows of the remaining panthers. Although we are free to continue on our way we are now coated in blood, to which feathers, seeds and leaves are stuck, but nonetheless feel invigorated.

Night descends and all falls into silence, typical of the hour before dawn. We feel trepidation. Everything has its shadow, it's double identity. Nausea asserts itself. We wait beneath the canopy of silence, hardly daring to make a sound, when the forest explodes in a mass of flames and the door slams shut again, excluding us; leaving us to wonder if what we saw was a portrayal of our reality or an external interpretation, constructed for our amusement. Is this contradiction the point? Can we ever believe what we are told without accepting that we are being manipulated? There is a less palatable other in all things, and vice versa.

Blue light forces its way from behind the door, producing a wide corona which augments the atmosphere of this club, where the rich and fabulous are sumptuously attired. I push my way through the dancing bodies, punctuated by beams of light. They are all boys and cry like newborns, from time to time thrusting their penises into muddied palms. An acrid gas seeps from behind the door and the tears start to flood, whilst the boys slowly collapse to pools on the floor.

As the gas starts to clear a pygmy people emerge. They walk upright, but they're stinking. They squat, and each deposits a steaming egg then ambles away. The floor is covered with the damp footprints of the departed, which in turn burst into flames, and from these there rises an indistinct figure, slowly metamorphosising into one at the prime of youth, beneath whose skin writhe young women of an equal vitality, though his mind remains featureless.

The women prepare to emerge, so we avert our gaze, and as they exit they join in tentative song. They turn about and surely start to become aware; they turn their heads, listening. Each adopts a sequence of positions from Sins of the Imaginary Doge's Animals then runs away and hides. Darkness descends, illuminated by a sole candle, but hope is retained in the voice of a child singing nonsense:

     "I creep from your house
     And say nothing at all
     About those who have been there
     And those who are gone
     For you are not like me
     You know, Mrs. Claw
     You are not like me
     You're more like the person
     I met at the door
     And I know that that
     Was not you, Mrs. Claw
     Because you are you, Mrs. Claw
     You are you, but not them"

     "The men dance on watches
     From sticky rock vermin
     Whilst lobsters display
     The heart of their dance
     And kangaroo women
     Slide from the wild
     Minds of sadness".

As dawn breaks and scurrying mice scatter this way and that in their hundreds. Wherever they stop, falter or turn a bright poppy springs from the ground.

The young boy runs down the hill, lays an object on the ground then quickly runs away.

It is a "vagina dentata", which flips over and starts to forage through the grass, consuming whatever is in its path. It is a viscous serpent that invites as it repels.

Our hero, Stylus Alias, steps forward, grabs the beast in both hands and twists its neck  s u r r e n d e r  i s  n o t  a n  o p t i o n  Saddened, he embarks upon a dirt track, through the unsettling courtesy of a wind.

Journeying by craft over water and land. Measuring intuition against learning. Listening. Appraising and questioning the beauty of the objects that surround.

A red moon rises and from it uncoils a red snake that drops to the ground and flows toward us. Stylus Alias grasps it and inspects its alien proportions, which makes him jolly. He refuses to live his life through people who "dare to". He is diverted by no illusions. Blindfolded. He is guided by a strange bird. Together they dance. But despite his joy he longs to be free once more.

He sneaks away through the night but as a moonlight shadow the creature pursues him, intending to penetrate his body for good, but it is a struggle for both of them. He reddens and deliriously smears himself with plant salves and resins. He falls back and from his bowels emerges a white foetus:

"Progress doesn't exist. It is the eradication of those who are happier and freer than us. We need to pursue the bitter course and they're an embarrassment because they remind us how ridiculous we've become."

Suddenly a storm blows up. A thick darkness envelopes and conceals him. He rises and walks through the endless passages of night, not knowing which way to turn.

Seven tiny lights rise in the air at a distance, or so it seems. He likewise starts to rise, as though he was ascending a slope. He is no longer controller of his motion, although by obstinately facing the current he feels he may be able to influence its pull.

In this way he arrives at a great and seemingly impenetrable wall, above which rises a many headed serpent, whose belly swells and starts to split, puffing out a huge, blue-grey cloud of smoke, which, once cleared, reveals a locked box, but no key. Gingerly, he takes it into his arms and waits for a sign to continue. He looks around, hoping to see something that would remind him how he should advance. The box starts to spin as he realises no external sign will come. In his turn he starts to spin, at which the box starts to slow down and stops, as blood leaks from the seams and drips to the ground, where it seeps deep into the earth.

The sides of the box fall back to reveal a delicate frame in which gems like glittering stars circulate. Their movement appears to be governed by instinct rather than by law, and as they conjoin they flare up and a single droplet falls to the ground, cooling the others as they move aside and re-combine, and from this conjunction of elements there also emerge tiny human figures which remind Stylus of himself, although their features are blurred.

They start to rave and some attempt to kill each other with their bare hands, whilst others tug at the frame to escape, and fall towards the ground, but sprout wings, like those of cranes, and fly away in pairs.

He claps ferociously, in order to scatter them and bring them down, but when they land they jump up and run around, gathering sticks and twigs, with which they start to construct a tower, so that they can get back to the top of the wall and to the cube.

Whilst some build the others play on lutes, flutes and cymbals and set off firecrackers.

Snow starts to fall and Stylus's interest fades.

The tower rises quickly under the little ones' skilful hands as the lower tiers are buried under snow. Shafts of laughter bursting violently from the cold white banks and the scaffolding sways and says, refusing to stay upright, as the sky starts to swarm with small helicopters, which let down rope ladders for them to clamber up and make their escape. They are swiftly carried away, leaving only silence.

Stylus is enveloped by a luminescent mist, light jade in colour, although this gradually disperses, presenting an image that he is regaining consciousness, or even emerging from a dream.

Giant shadows reveal themselves as giant fingers on a giant hand, reaching out to grasp him. He feels an urge to defecate, as though that might dispel them, but the hands pass right through him, as shadows are inclined to do.

Unburdened, he feels infinitely lighter and starts to ascend the ramp into the stars.

He chances upon a golden shaft, fixed to the plane, but when he touches it it bursts into shimmering light, which dazzles as it expires, splashing against the invisible ramp, and flowing away as milken rivulets.

At this juncture he starts to shed his skin. But the being that emerges is quite alien in appearance, of undetermined sex, its skin stained pale and sable with a dark violet splash across its pelvic region. This creature has wings and its face is concealed by a beard (although this may in fact be false). I relish the ambiguity of childhood over the hypocrisy of adults. But now one can clearly see that this is a disguise, as is the garish violet phallus as it rises, which fact the scent of menstrual blood tends to confirm.

The creature starts to spin, emitting an increasingly powerful rasping noise. Scores of children arrive, attracted by the sound, and attempt to climb onto its back and shoulders. They flutter their eyelashes and the light breeze they create gently lifts the creature's wings, at which they bludgeon it, slash its stomach and draw out its guts.

They lay the alien down and while some wash its feet the others adorn its hair with flowers.

As they do this the snow melts away and the sun beats strong, then thunder, then lightning, and rain swiftly falls.

From the belly of the beast two robots emerge. The children quickly turn heel and flee, as though fearing they may in some way be contaminated.

A circling vulture comes to ground and commences pecking at the robots' feet, until a toe has been detached from each of them, and these it conceals in the entrails of the corpse, where it also lays an egg, before returning for another toe, and so on, until the robots' toes and fingers have all been removed. The vulture then jumps into the carcass and grips the innards tight with its talons, presenting an awesome attitude, as though it would be prepared to defend its treasure with its life.

But this posture is short lived, as the bird soars into the sky and tears away so quickly that in next to no time it has attained light speed and disappears from view.

A transporter arrives and in this the damaged robots are speedily ambulanced away. BUT! A question hangs in the air, as three beautiful sisters arrive on the scene: is this all a dream?

The girls are playing. Spinning and dancing in an overtly sexual fashion, cramming their mouths with whatever they can find that is edible, and as they do this they seem to become increasingly real.

The air begins to hum and tremble, as though our world was being shaken apart, and as a fast-fading memory, a lie, this world dissolves. The nice people, the cowards, over-compensate their failings.

We are on a gravel path on a hot, bright, most radiant summer's day, and are headed towards a fabulous lake. But memory seeks to impose itself upon our view, with greater force when the mind is clear than when this intervention is intended. Mindlessly, we travel through our memories, with no thought for when they might end.

Shadows and slight forms flit across the garden space; yet it would seem a permanent barrier had been set in place. A drop-down menu appears, confirming that we are before a screen obscured. From the menu we select Forest House. We wash away our smell to cultivate discrimination. With apprehension, we enter the house, which is infused with a sparkling, bluish light, that is dense enough to prevent us from seeing the walls and windows. Snakes weave in and out of the light, disappearing then reappearing; first red, then green, then yellow, then blue, then orange, then violet. Through this swirling mist we are returned to the first page. This time it is up-to-date, improved, but lacking an engine of volition, as though the rules it seeks to promote obscure the character it attempts to hide (much like a killer who would seek to hide his true nature by repeating "though shall not kill". A fancy costume, if you will, reducing to the "summary" word darkness, Love.

From the primordial glow emerges a woman so very perfect—the summation of every ideal—but cannot embrace her deeply enough. Laughter in a teasing air. A complex dance ensues, carefully enacted, as though a false move would spell disaster.

The patterns of the dance become increasingly complex and unfathomable as she moves around a pole, by turns imitating birds, a monkey, a dog and a goat. Swinging her arse and chasing her tail.

Upon a flagstone she sacrifices a number of chickens and a pair of small pigs, although the controversy inherent in this action is somewhat migitigated when she starts to consume the carcasses.

A giant tortoise arrives. She attempts to climb into its mouth but there is a blockage, so she has a look at the other end, from which she backs away, and is pulled to her knees, as by a force from the ground, against which she impels herself to rise, however, with arms lifted in supplication, as the rear end of this giant mechanical deity squeezes out the words: "Between listening, screaming and achievement, the political hours hope to memorize the scratches cured by threatening rules; the empty suns train knowledge to welcome dance. This illustrates the pyramid of love".

Then, with a gesture for her to follow, it embarks on a tour of the area (the planet).

She seems unwilling to tag along, seeing only darkness and despair ahead, unable to trust in the power of her mind. She is uncertain whether she wishes to be either a witness or a perpetrator in this operation. Her mind is a troubled mind she cannot yet dispel. She stumbles around as one blind.

The sun suddenly shines mightily and she reaches out in supplication. Facing the energy body, she marks a line along the ground, using whatever comes to hand, then leaps up, skips across the line, and runs off, without looking back.

Now it is we who are floundering. Do we have anything left to see, to say, to think? where is there now for our enquiries to lead? No-one can control fate or rule the game now, only chance can intervene.

From the rear end of the automata drops a ramp, down which trundles a trolley full of groceries. In my experience, those who confess to having no imagination generally have an abundance, but are incapable of distinguishing it from reality.

From the trolley bursts forth a pooch, tail wagging, tongue lolling, seeking attention. But there is no-one there to minister to its needs. The dog leaps back and away, down into the depths of the machine.

Out leap cheerful and brightly adorned boys and girls who form themselves into chains and commence a complex, joyful, serpentine dance, winding their way around the standing trolley. These are "The Family", freed from institutional restraint. As their dance becomes increasingly provocative the earth starts to seethe as though something forbidden to attempting to rise above it. Dirt and grime clings to the dancers' legs and crawls to their waists. They quickly divest themselves of their clothing and pull objects from the trolley to dance upon them: a toy piano; a pair of long gongs; an old plough; a new one.

Girls and boys now remain resolutely apart. Phallic columns rise from the earth, lifting them high into the sky, to rest upon the spires of a heaven-bound palace. Here they flare as neon lights, bobbing up and down, as the palace doors burst open and out runs a satisfied customer, shopping trolley filled to the brim. The doors snap shut and are flung open again by another shopper, then another. Each, however, is followed by a haunting figure, dressed to scare, and the terrified shoppers each runs away, as the phantom casts their abandoned trolley into a deep well, followed by flaming torches and the fire consumes.

Onto the scene arrives an omnibus, filled to capacity with the scattered shoppers, and this in turn sets the imitation ghosts to flight, for fear of being run down.

They form a ring about the burning well and sit to beat their drums, dowsing their skins with spirits all the while. As through a funnell, a torrential rain cascades, straight down the well, precisely. An orgy thus ensues (an orgy of bargaining power) as from the well erupts a newborn. But down drops a cylindrical cage, trapping the baby within.

A screen materialises inside the cage, as the bars meld to enclose baby with TV. The newborn, whose sex it is not possible to ascertain, tosses a wristwatch from the cage, which smashes when it hits the ground. The adults gather around and stare at the object with guilty horror. They hug each other tightly, their eyes blind with fear. Blood flows freely from their fingertips and congeals as it hits the ground. The infant starts to cry.

Sunday, 13 November 2016

I see a snout

I see a snout in partial filth
A trading route established for
Emotional funding
I put on my boots,
Then my coat
And like a clot I stand
With my back to the door
Gripping the irresistible urge
To stay at home
To remain alone

This is who I am not me or may be as the lofty head that's bowed in self regard belies an icon free for futures in our sallow skins, night seeking eyes work deep inside the caverns of a mind where destiny has sought and found and left us free from thought like creatures who now know who or what they are and settle and no longer seek, they mate and rear and fertilize the land with what remains - the blood of prey.

What kind of communication is it that doesn't have a like button?

I am walking through the streets, cradling a cardboard box that contains three cats. One has stuck its head out of a hole in the front, another has stuck its tail out of a hole in the back and the last one has stuck its legs out of the holes in the bottom and this is somehow a dog. Sure enough, I am now walking around with a cat box dog, clutching the pair of handles that have sprouted from its spine, in lieu of a leash.

I have breathed seven hundred and four times this week. One hundred times a day, and some. I have punctuated each breath with a hic or a cup, and in each cup I have deposited a stone. I have invited soldiers to dine here
.... √\/\/\ ....
BUT DO WE EVER GET THROUGH?
.... √\/\/\ ....
On horseback I desperately rode for five days, clutching a shit encrusted bat in each hand. They chirruped like crickets.

I am riding the dung line. I've not slept for days. Those pathetic buffoons, the Tomlin brothers, are over there among the greens, spitting out their vile invective, and I wish they were dead; that I could throw them overboard and be done with them, but I cannot. They are stuck there, as I am stuck here. There have never been fears that you could deny or pass away as only

Some of us would cry
Because the earth we see
Is not the blossom we
Would hold between our teeth
And dance

You run to water
Tears of wanting
To the step free
Unzip your curses

There is a dark knife, inserted in a wooden place
There is a soft, folding knife, inserted in the leaves of awe
There are knives of green, like kidneys, stirred by your song
Your welcome love to kindle
Love your gone mouth
And trouble
Long as round life

Rubble turned
From passenger
To passenger
Upset the long view

In hands as dry as day
What I see
Guides no
Heaving ruins
To the kerb
Where I write:

Interested in politics and husbands
On the floor is dirty
Would like to meet a bird
To shake hands
In the bin a mouse gland
A fruited will
Ingested lines

If I could raise to life the world I seek
I would not need for wings

Phoenix Quixote

Plates of quills and fruit that doubt the flight of green
Have called for authors from the castle joy to
Offer up these naked flames disguised as words
Enveloping a universe of laughter
Neither knight nor damson sighs can douse without
Intoxicating waters, energised by
Xanthus vines' and madder jewels' enchanted mouths

Questing beards and capacious smiles raise the day
Upon the devil of a shepherd's shoulders
Ill-defended windmills battle with the mind's
Xenogenetic fruit of wings unfolding
Orchestrated by the science of a muse
These salutations quest for ceremony
End with love in this refreshing xenium

I have breathed

I have breathed seven hundred and four times this week. One hundred times a day, and some. I have punctuated each breath with a hic or a cup, and in each cup I have deposited a stone. I have invited soldiers to dine here
    .... √\/\/\ ....
    ARE WE GETTING THROUGH?

On horseback I desperately rode for five days, clutching a shit encrusted bat in each hand. They chirruped like crickets.

I am riding the dung line. I've not slept for days. Those pathetic buffoons, the Tomlin brothers, are over there among the greens, spitting out their vile invective, and I wish they were dead; that I could throw them overboard and be done with them, but I cannot. They are stuck there, as I am stuck here. There have never been fears that you could deny or pass away as only
Some of us would cry
Because the earth we see
Is not the blossom we
Would hold between our teeth
That leads us through the
Den of dragons
Smarting
Dolcelatta
You heard that

The power of the crush

"I am gripped by the needs of barbarous hands, am spun around, until blood has formed my new skin".

There’s a cat who lives in fuzzy whispers
Hucker down, Hucker down
A cat that eats just mushroom fritters
In the lo∪ong grass

"I rue the barbed and narrow minded gesture whose conclusion leads me to believe I don't belong".

Fire out of the eardrums. Fire out of the heart. Fire out of the nostrils. What kind of beast inhabits these dreams? I'll give you solitaire. I'm being bullied into shape, by god knows what? Outside, I see limping horses, a shadow ranging over land. A shadow in the shape of a bow tie, upon a crisp white shirt that lends the eyes a seal of governance. I have been awoken before by this bellowing. The whole house groans. I've waited for sieges of rats to enter this pantry and tear from the tips of the fingers the light that is used to ensnare the people of Main. A light called money.

Here is a lake. The water is quite still. I must lay here and breathe.

"I have a polite request."
"You do, what's that?"
"Poop."
"That's not polite."
"I said it politely."
"I can't."
"Why not? You know that when you poop your words smell like butter jam."
"Only the long ones."
"The long words are the last words."
"You are the exit."

Under the microscope I would be gone.

Singing brings Ecclesiastes to blister

Singing brings Ecclesiastes to blister
Wonder why
The mouth is open
Anna forms a muscular sky
Intoxicated
Drumroll please
For reason read
Distortion lock out bones ride
A Summer water wrung from
Optics ocean-side retains
A kind of potency
Reserved
A throwback door
To feelings brave inert suspension

You lift your rock
You feel its weight
You set it down
You weep
Submit a stream
A backwind claw
To tear your childhood glances
Into shapes you recognise
As friends

A strangled word
Takes mirrors
To invoke
Unconscious conscious outlines
For collapsing hands
Some drawn from ignorance
And others drawn from style

Beat the monkey smooth
Resume a texting game
Surprise is like an anxious sleep
Ergo, a bitch brave taboo